sleep paralysis

last night you told me you took a pill to help you fall asleep and i remembered being afraid of our bodies in the grass
how the cattle stepped right next to my head and you wouldn’t wake up
we kiss a bitter bite of the dirt
and i wonder how could you dream in this moment
when i can’t hear anything but the rumble of the earth and 
your heart sinking as it is crushed

these days i think you saw wrinkles in my face and our bodies dancing
in the warmth of a lamp that i will turn off before it explodes.
there is a broom in the corner of my room that
i have dragged to its end and a a song that you play
when you remember every time i shook you awake because you were cold and
can you come back please i’m not finished telling this story

i wake up to the light gone, and i am miserable
at 2:38 am the warmth creeps in and the grass bleeds out
so i am done i guess because there is nothing left for you to see
but the smoke stains on my ceiling